Iâ€™m Coming Out: Personal Stories from The National Lesbian and Gay Survey Collection
Sex and Sexuality Module II: Self Expression, Community and Identity contains hundreds of anonymous responses to The National Lesbian and Gay Survey collection, which is introduced in our resource with a video from Dr Justin Bengry, the Director of the Centre for Queer History at Goldsmiths, University of London.
The National Lesbian and Gay Survey was launched in 1986 by Kenneth Barrow, who was himself inspired by his own input to the Mass Observation Project as a respondent, to capture the personal thoughts, opinions, and lived experiences of Britainâ€™s gay and lesbian community.
Perhaps one of the most personal experiences LGBTQ+ people face is the decision to come out (or not) and, inevitably, each person has their own story to tell. Here are three of them, from a 1995 directive titled â€˜All About Outâ€™.
Respondent 611â€™s story starts with his relationship with a man who lived an â€˜almost entirely closetedâ€™ life. Eventually, what upsets 611 most about living a closeted life is â€˜all the complicated lies (either active or by omission)â€™ they told, especially to his family. While 611 claims he came out at the worst possible time (â€˜two days before the traditional family Christmas!â€™), it is clear from the experiences that follow that his decision allowed him to find happiness. On coming out, 611 offers the following advice:
Respondent 602 shares 611â€™s view that coming out is â€˜inevitably a continuing and unending process which can be a daily aspect of our livesâ€™. 602 details how â€˜as for many peopleâ€™ her first coming out was to herself, which she found â€˜confirming and disconcertingâ€™, however, â€˜at that time I had an overwhelming sense of myself coming home at lastâ€™. 602 shares â€˜the most agonising decisionâ€™ around her and her partner coming out to her partnerâ€™s two children because they feared that they would be rejected, but also that they would be forcing the children to â€˜deal with the stigma of having a lesbian motherâ€™. In fact, their coming out created an open dialogue in which â€˜one of the boys decided he too was gayâ€™:
Respondent 808 would arguably make 611 think again about their claim to coming out at the worst possible timeâ€¦
What followed for 808 was an awkward breakfast and a difficult conversation with his parents about his loud declaration of his queerness. His parents â€˜suggested that I should move home so that I could get betterâ€™ but 808 states that â€˜there was nothing wrong with me, that I was perfectly happy as I wasâ€™. The parents bring in his aunt, both to help convince 808 to do as they say but also to assure her secrecy, but 808â€™s aunt was having none of it:
808â€™s parents eventually come around and accept his sexuality, and they treat his partner as a part of the family. Although 808 recognises that â€˜this definitely was not the best way of handling the situationâ€™ he is â€˜yet to find a way that isâ€™ and offers these final uplifting words of advice for those thinking about coming out: